maplebreeze

ok I don't want to sound rude bc I'm flattered you guys like my stuff, but it'd be great if I got some comments along with all the faves. I just wanna hear what y'all have to say. 

I'm trying really really hard not to panic because my friend who, like me, has a history of depression, recently threatened to kill himself. I was sleeping so I didn't get the text until hours later and now he won't respond.
My grandma is showing rlly bad signs of dementia today. my mom just took off to go see her and left me. She was crying. I will have to finish this journal another time.

I don't care, I love them.

P.S. I bound my chest for the first time in a long time and I feel so good and confident

One X = Fear 
Two X's = Phobia 
Three X's = I NEVER want this around me/to happen. EVER.

[ ] the dark
[X] staying single forever
[] being a parent
[XX] giving birth (I'll prolly either have my future wife do it or adopt. Imma be a kickass parent tho.)
[X] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[ ] closed spaces 
[ ] heights (I LOVE HEIGHTS)
[ ] dogs (AND ALL ANIMALS OMG)
[ ] birds 
[ ] fish
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants
Total So far: 3

[ ] being touched (Not really a fear it just makes me uncomfortable)
[ ] fire 
[ ] deep water 
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[XXX] failure (It's honestly crippling at times)
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my significant other's dad
[ ] significant other's  mom
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
Total so far: 4

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges 
[XX] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns 
[ ] dolls (I shouldn't say this bc it ruins my butch image but I collect dolls)
[ ] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibilities
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes 
Total so far: 5

[ ] hurricanes
[ ] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[XX] school 
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone 
[XX] becoming blind
[X] becoming deaf
[XX] growing up
Total so far: 9

[ ] creepy noises in the night 
[ ] bee stings  
[XXX] not accomplishing my dreams/goals 
[ ] needles 
[ ] dinosaurs  
[ ] the welcome mat 
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[ ] falling in love 
[ ] super secrets
Total so far: 10

Ok first of all someone needs to recommend me some groups to join.
Second of all man wow I'm not going to say my tablet was a bad idea, because it was the best purchase I've made in a while, but since I got it my motivation to do traditional art has plummeted. Like, wow. But I'm going to, because I have to and want to and my future rests on me getting off my butt and making art. 

There are 2 girls I like and both are wildly out of my league so expect a lot of gay sadness coming up.

Aaaaand I'm back. Kool beans. I'm working on two biggish pieces right now so my gallery is gonna bulk up a little in the near future *crosses fingers.*